“You are the secretary of My Heart; write down whatever comes to mind. Your thoughts are united to My thoughts. He has chosen you for that office in this life and in the next. Know that His choice will not change.”

*Solemn Salve Regina. Video made by Mary’s Secretary.*

“If in the past ages, the Church had to rely on her anchorites, we need more than ever today that they should exist and prosper.” ~Pope Pius XI~



Carmelite Hermitess of Our Lady of Fatima:

Are men and devils to have their voluntary slaves, and Mary to have none?

~Saint Louis Marie de Montfort~

Why my blog? After all, WordPress does say “Just another WordPress site”.  I am a simple secretary of Mary and I like to fish. I grew up typically fishing in lakes, I soon progressed to oceans…now the new challenge is people. Yes, I have my fishing pole at hand and well, I am ready to reel you in. One of my all time favorite saints named Therese once said “More merciful to me than to His beloved disciples, Our Lord Himself took the net, cast it, and drew it in full of fish. He made me a fisher of men.” I like to fish, but the actual One who will be reeling you in has a lot to tell you. Don’t worry, He is quite the Gentleman. Although, I hope you don’t mind hooks!

I am in the process of trying to establish myself as a  Carmelite Hermitess of Our Lady of Fatima, as Sister Jade Mary of the Sorrowful Heart, under Canon 603 with bishop approval in the United States. I have a great love for Our Lady of Fatima, Our Lady of Mount Carmel, Our Lady of Seven Sorrows and the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I simply wish to live a life of total seclusion offering every small sacrifice for the triumph of the Immaculate Heart. I have four top priorities in which to devote my eremitical life: Love of Christ as Spouse, the Chair of Saint Peter, our great Nation of the United States of America and the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

I have no desire to preach, I simply wish to be “alone with the Alone”, just how the early Church Desert Fathers used to live. That of Elijah and Moses who discovered God’s deepest secrets while on the mountain or in the cave of concealment. My day will center on observing the strict rule of Saint Albert of Jerusalem and edited constitutions of Our Holy Mother Teresa of Jesus, the Traditional Latin Mass, the Carmelite Rite of the Divine Office and selling Catholic art on Etsy, called Mary’s Secretary “ArtForTheSorrowfulHeart”, as a means of self support. Of course, I will also devote some of my time to blogging. For more details on how to be apart of my mission, my daily hororium and way of life click below:


Cover for the song Stay by Vancouver Sleep Clinic. Video from Mel Gibson’s Passion of the Christ (I own nothing!)

Dedicated to the Good Saint Michael the Archangel, Elijah, Moses, John the Baptist, Saints Peter and Paul and all the Apostles of Christ Crucified.



“All world’s draw to an end, and a noble death is a treasure in which no one is too poor to buy.” ~ Narnia’s Last Battle~

Scroll to the bottom of the page where you can be taken to “ArtForTheSorrowfulHeart” Etsy shop where you will find holy cards, stationary and prints!

*Video Preview of ArtForTheSorrowfulHeart Etsy Shop! Music: Stella Splendens by Prima Luce.*

Write Mary’s Secretary for any prayer requests or if you have a custom order outside of Etsy:

“The baser, humbler soul was I, the more exhausted did I grow. ‘No hope!’ Was all that I could say. But, as I sank and sank so low, higher and higher did I fly.”  

~Excerpt taken from one of the poems of Our Holy Father John of the Cross~

Story behind Etsy:

In Carmel, I discovered a love for designing holy cards for the other sisters when their vows or clothing ceremonies were approaching; I would raid the convent art room and hunt for the most unique pictures and colors I could find that complimented one another. I will never forget my novice mistress’ answer when asked what her favorite color was: “I don’t have a favorite color, I just like colors that go well together.” This hobby carried over when I discovered a different calling to be a Carmelite Hermitess. After Our Lord’s Resurrection, Lazarus became a bishop, Martha started a community of holy virgins, but what did Mary Magdalene do? She became an Anchorite; she lived in a cave the rest of her days and in order to be faithful to her solitude with Our Lord, the angels brought her the Eucharist everyday. Providentially enough, by total accident, I started my Etsy shop on her feast day- July 22nd, 2021. All the proceeds will be part of my means for sustainable living, just as religious communities depend on donations with their vow of poverty and specializing in something in particular to bring in income for the monastery, that is my goal with a hermitage!

Do not let a day go by without some spiritual reading. ~Saint John Bosco~

Recommended books on Fatima:

1.) The Whole Truth About Fatima (3 volumes total, can be found in link documents for free below) written by Frere Michel de la Saints Trinite:

Volume 1: https://fatima.machado-family.com/vol1/

Volume 2: https://fatima.machado-family.com/vol2/

Volume 3: https://fatima.machado-family.com/vol3/

2.) Sister Lucia, Apostle of Mary’s Immaculate Heart by Mark Fellows (anything from the Fatima Center is the most reliable).

3.) The Fourth Secret of Fatima by Antonio Socci.

4.) The Secret of Benedict XVI by Antonio Socci (I promise this has to do with Fatima).

5.) Sign of Her Heart (also under the title The Scapular Promise). I read this shortly before receiving Our Lady’s Holy Habit and it was the best publication I have had the pleasure of reading with the link between Fatima and the scapular.

Recommended books on the spiritual life and prayer:

1.) The Practice of the Presence God by Carmelite Lay Brother, Lawrence of the Resurrection. When people ask me how to pray, I ALWAYS point to this simple and practical method; it not only changed my entire way of viewing prayer but when I embraced it, my soul was utterly transformed! Perfection can be reached in a short time with this practice.

2.) Hermitage Within by an anonymous monk. “Not all should or can live as a hermit, but all should develop an inner hermitage within where God is found in the center.”

3.) The works of Saint John of the Cross: Dark Night of the Soul, Ascent to Mount Carmel, Precautions and Counsels, Living Flame of Love and Spiritual Canticle poem (any of his poems).

4.) Etiquette by Emily Post. I found this book on the novitiate book shelf; my Mother Mistress underlined and highlighted more paragraphs than I can count. Post taught me that manners have EVERYTHING to do with perfection in the spiritual life, and most of the customs in her book actually came from early monastic life.

5.) Boundaries by Drs Henry Cloud and John Townsend. I promise you that setting boundaries in the spiritual life will lead to greater perfection. This book is taken from a biblical perspective:

Can I set limits and still be a loving person?

What are legitimate boundaries?

What if someone is upset or hurt by my boundaries?

How do I answer someone who wants my time, love, energy, or money?

Why do I feel guilty or afraid when I consider setting boundaries?

Aren’t boundaries selfish?

Books on Mary:

1.) The Glories of Mary by Saint Alphonsus Liguori.

2.) The Works of Saint Louis de Montfort: The Secret of Mary, True Devotion to Mary and The Secret of the Rosary.

3.) The Admirable Heart of Mary by Saint John Eudes.

4.) The Imitation of Mary by Alexander De Rouville.

5.) Mary Was Her Life; book based on the short but profound life of Carmelite Venerable Teresita Quevedo. “Every girl has an obsession and Teresita’s was the Mother of God”.

6.) Saint Maximilian Kolbe’s The Marian Vow, written by Father Stefani Manelli (the active “presence” of Mary).

“I tell you, my brothers, it is from Carmel that the brethren must climb to the Mountain–all those who deserve to be called “Carmelites,” in other words, who, on account of the excellence of their lives, will go from strength to strength in a steady ascent from the Mount of the Circumcision of Vices until they reach, as they surely will, the Mountain which is Christ.”

~Saint Angelus of Sicily~