I heard recently that true humility is knowing your place, and taking it. I stopped blogging, regularly, outside of a few posts, on Mary’s Secretary back sometime in 2022 because of something Ann Barnhardt said to me in an email about how hermits should spend every moment loving the Trinity and NOT be writing.
At the time I took that to heart, because what really quite frankly bothers me about today’s nuns and priests is how they take selfies and are found all over social media (Facebook, Twitter and Instagram). It’s all about “them”. It’s so… backward and truly, in my view, takes away glory to God because it’s all about self. So, I took a pause, and I wrote a farewell post on Mary’s Secretary and for several years, outside of a private published book only a handful know about, I stopped writing.
Believe it or not, it was truly out of humility, that I stopped writing (and a little of caring what people think). But here is where something incredible happened; a divine revelation, if you will, that happened this 2025. I recalled the saints or apostles Our Lord called to write from the solitude. Since it was His will, did this somehow take away from the contemplative of His choosing, giving glory to the Trinity? On the contrary, God’s glory was fulfilled. I thought of Teresa of the Andes:
In her short time as a Cloistered Carmelite [only 11 months before her glorious death] her writings, including her letters and a diary she finished in Carmel, have made her a spiritual master for our times, even though she never intended for her work to be published.
John of the Cross, Teresa of Jesus and Therese all wrote during the duration of their contemplative vocations, as well as John the Apostle wrote the guide for our times on an island of total solitude: The book of the Apocalypse. Did any of this take away from the glory of the Trinity? NAY. Why? Because it was God’s will.
The reason I opened this website, in 2016, long before I even desired contemplative life, was because I wanted to be a missionary and use technology just like Maximilian Kolbe did for the Immaculata. I wanted to walk the globe, on foot, and spread true devotion to Mary. But, if I am being entirely forthright, there was some selfish, vain glory reasons behind that desire.
I think there was some part of me that wanted to be seen and heard, and at that period of my life, I received my affirmation from people. If I wasn’t loved by everyone around me, I couldn’t see how Our Lord could. It has taken me years to distinguish between the two, and about eight years of solitude, now, to “know my place, and take it.” After all, that is what true humility is, right?
Mary has “ordered” my desires and shown me how I can best serve Her and give true glory to the Trinity. I read how the Marian Vow PERFECTS the vocation or office of the soul who takes this Vow, and I can say truthfully, that this Vow is the most powerful of them all, because essentially what takes place is Mary swoops in and works DIRECTLY on behalf of the soul to fulfill their mission.
This is what happened to Saint Paul with his WRITING, preaching and his heroic death. This is what happened to the Catholic Church since she is Mary’s “dowry”. And this is what WILL happen with Russia and the Jews when BOTH are converted. I apply this to being “Mary’s Secretary”.
The reason I chose this title for this site in 2016, officially opened on the feast of Mary’s glorious Seven Sorrows as my Patron, is because I was sitting in a Church one day in San Clemente, California called none other than Our Lady of Fatima and I reflected on how Saint Faustina was Our Lord’s Secretary of Mercy.
I was so utterly drawn to that title of “Secretary” and I remember sitting in a pew just wracking my brain with wanting to be a secretary of SOMETHING, of SOMEONE. I WANT TO SERVE, TOO! I oddly enough imagined Saint Faustina at a desk with her little sign that read “Secretary of Mercy” and then imagined seeing an empty desk where I was called to sit. I could see a little sign, like Faustina’s, and was desperate to see what my sign would read, and then the thought hit like lightning: “Secretary of Mary.” The rest was history.
Despite my former Mother Superiors having systemic problems, I will never forget one of them telling me right before my departure: “You WILL be Mary’s secretary; you WILL live and Die with Mary.” I no longer desire to walk the globe and be seen or heard. In fact, I have not taken a genuine selfie since 2014. In short, I want to fulfill this “office” as Mary’s Secretary in a total UNWORLDLY way.
You don’t see my face, you don’t hear my voice and you don’t even see my name. I am simply “the secretary”, the pen of Mary. This site and these words are Hers, and if She lets me, I will humbly do anything for Her. We need to have the great desires of the martyrs of old, to be willing to DIE for our faith. To die for Jesus and Mary. In short, I hope my former superior’s words were prophetic: I HOPE I DIE FOR MARY. I took Our Lord’s words to Faustina and applied it to Mary and Her Heart as secretary:
You are the secretary of My Heart; write down whatever comes to mind. Your thoughts are united to My thoughts. He has chosen you for that office in this life and in the next. Know that His choice will not change.
I think my favorite part about that quote is having my THOUGHTS united to Mary’s. How…PURIFYING? This break away from publicly writing has ironically made me more bold in speaking the truth. It’s taken the winter to find who I am, and I know that I am done being politically correct. I will speak the full truth or no truth at all. This notion of “prudence” is being used in a most unholy manner.
The Holy Ghost does not approve. What made the Prophet Elijah so fiery was the fact that he seemingly came out of nowhere and immediately began preaching the truth without fear of who he would offend. Start doing that, my dear readers, and less souls would be in hell or purgatory.
I will be posting most if not all the writings on Aflavia and I’s new website on Mary’s Secretary and I will officially begin with my Saint Paul Series. Words cannot express how much this Trilogy means to me. I urge you to read it for the sake of Saint Paul. He is my ALL TIME FAVORITE SAINT (after Our Lady, Saint Joseph and Saint Michael) and once you read about how is role is linked to Mary’s triumph as well as to the Passion and wedding of the Church, I don’t think you will ever see him the same way again.
AVE MARIA, CHRIST IS KING!
Epilogue:
Saint Paul Trilogy Reviews:
From my friend Lawrence:
On a truly bright note I wanted to tell you how beautifully written the Saint Paul posts are and I never read anything like them to be frank, as I was really being educated as well as inspired; oh how blessed we are to have such a Saint Apostle Paul as another lead advocate for Jesus in his writings along with Saint Apostle Peter The Rock of The Church! I’m so thankful and inspired by you as well with your advocacy and helping me to read as well as seek the foundational truths they provide for us all! I’m so happy that my appreciation of what you wrote about Saint Paul and that it helped educate me was in turn an inspiration and brought some joy to your heart Dearest Little Sister! Again I think you are a wonderful writer and I see your love and passion for the Church in it as well as your teaching skill or talent; so please use your gifts wisely as you do to advance the Church and the plan of our Father in heaven!
From my friend Mark:
Reflection of the First Part:
The virtues of celibacy and chastity allows man to be level-headed and to be governed by logic rather than passions. Also, it allows man and woman to spend more of their energy towards seeking the spiritual presence of God, who is able to fill their all their needs (body and soul) and through the presence the Holy Ghost.
It was lust that led to the French Revolution and the establishment of the Church of England. King Louis XVI could not control her wife Marie Antoinette, who was known for both her lust of men and excessive materialism. King Henry VIII’s lust towards Anne Boleyn led him to divorce his first wife Queen Catherine of Aragon and establish a new church after the Pope (Clement VII) did not grant him is request.
Since Pope Clement VII is part of the Medici family, who are known for their love of art during the Renaissance and grand churches, he started a looting operation towards the Catholic Church by robbing it of its properties from churches and monasteries. These stories is similar to what happened even before Christ particularly with King Achab (Achab), who could not control his wife, Queen Jezebel, who helped led the establishment of Baal worship (materialism)
| 1 Kings 16:30-33 DRA – – Bible Gateway |
This led to a disaster when they went against the prophet Elijah (Elias) that led to Israel’s downfall in 1 Kings 18:1-46. Saint Paul stated that we must be fools for Christ as 1 Corinthians 1:20-25 stated. But put an emphasis on 1 Corinthians 1:21-22. It was when the Pharisees and the Sadducees sought for a sign (Matthew 16:1-4)
| Matthew 16:1-4 DRA – – Bible Gateway |
that Jesus established a church – the one true Catholic, holy, and apostolic Church – afterwards as Matthew 16:15-20. Indeed, Jesus established a Church when his enemies asked for sign which Saint Paul initially persecuted but later became a prominent member of it.
Reflection on the Second Part:
I felt that you went through the process of perfecting your faith. You went to college to obtain a degree on Animal Science degree which led you to Colorado State University whose mascot is a ram. Eventually, you experienced “thorns” particularly the trials and tribulations that led you to pursue a more fruitful endeavor particularly the expensive tuition fee that your Grandpa Ken has to shoulder. Interestingly, when Isaac was about to be offered by Abraham, God told him not to after being pleased with his faith. The Lord then asked him to offer a ram instead which was caught by its thorns as Genesis 22:13 states “Abraham lifted up his eyes, and saw behind his back a ram amongst the briers sticking fast by the horns, which he took and offered for a holocaust instead of his son.”
| Genesis 22:11-13 DRA – – Bible Gateway |
Now, you went from an Animal Science degree and offering the ram as a sacrifice towards serving and becoming a bride of Jesus Christ – the Lamb of God as John 1:29 states. From an Animal Science -> Sacrificial ram -> Lamb of God -> and your story continues….Interestingly, your story continues 
particularly the perfecting of your Catholic faith which many people have gone through like Jesus Christ himself from his passion, death, and resurrection and Abraham from being promised to become the Father of nations, to offering Isaac, and offering a ram instead in place of Isaac. Great things are happening ahead. 
Reflection On The Third Part:
You have truly explored the Jewish revolutionary spirit of narcissism particularly feminism and playing the role of eternal victim. Also, you have mentioned that the clergy particularly Catholic priests have started to institute the pursuit of numerous degrees to obtain a sense of self-worthiness. In fact, American people today view people in the monasteries – monks and nuns – who seek a life of prayer and seclusion from society – as weak individuals who would not survive in the real world with an occupation. Too bad that the motto of the Freemasonry “Fraternity, Liberty, Science” tries to counter “Faith, Hope, Charity” which are the three essential virtue of our Catholic faith as stated by Saint Paul in 1 Corinthians 13:13.
| 1 Corinthians 13:13 DRA – – Bible Gateway |
No question that the founder of the Illuminati Adam Weishaupt, a Bavarian Jew, Jesuit priest and canon lawyer who established the secret society on May 1, 1776, in Ingolstadt, Bavaria, was able to unite all secret societies by establishing the fact that life on earth is there that it is in life. It also emphasizes on the love of creation (materialism) rather of the Creator (God).
Too bad this hold true as that a retired FSSP (Fraternal Society of Saint Peter) priest whose name I forgot once stated (at LiveMass.net during a Latin Mass at Christ the King Sarasota,FL) “A priest cannot become a bishop unless he is a Freemason in the United States”. Sad but true 
. But you stated that the Immaculate Heart of Mary victory is ahead. No wonder the Protestants, Jews, modernists Catholics, and many other enemies of the Catholic Church have tried to demonize the Blessed Virgin Mary no end because the enemies of the Catholic Church know that she will crush the head of the serpent in the end.
| Genesis 3:15 DRA – – Bible Gateway |
Interestingly, Genesis 3:15 somewhat represents the holy rosary having 3 mysteries (Joyful, Sorrowful, Glorious) and a 5 mysteries each for a total of 15. Immaculate Heart of Mary, pray for us. Regards,
Pax ChristiSicut Militas Bonus ChristiMark
Mary's Secretary 
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